I been waitin', wide awake for the waves to come & take, take me right to you🖤
🖤🌹 All these ashes crumble when we touch..
🖤💀I tried looking into his eyes to make sense of my own life,but found senseless realizations.I was reckless & he was justification. A vacation from the monotony I lived in & avoiding risk felt nice until I realized I was avoiding purpose & it’s all new, but I love him at least I think, because I don’t want to live so empty & I have this tendency to complicate things better than I break things & he was somehow caught in the in-between & forever means forever & that’s what it'll always mean & life is a reality, except for when it’s a dream & those are the moments that I can’t seem to think, but I make sense of my mess by making sense of him & me & this fear keeps me alive. This fear of knowing that he could leave me & I could try..But this fear fuels the flames. That’s why I feel like I’m going to die. Cause he kept a part of me close by & I liked it the best I can & now that I know who I used to be. It’s hard to be happy with who I am & that’s where he came in. A half-baked smile & a love to pretend, but prior to then, love was nothing more to me than a vacation, a vacant motivation to avoid the means it takes to reach any real end. A sense of salvation, but also an element of bitter hope To cope with the rope that was tied around my neck..& the savior I hoped for was chased away, way back then When I found vices to take the place Of all the things I wanted to be & I lost sight of me,but I was told I could be anybody & I thought I could find purpose in loving someone who looks like me..& I began dreaming or sinking, most nights they meant the same thing..
🔼Set me FREE from this GRAVITY🔽
Some days I still don't know how to touch this body without breaking skin-
My demons are calling & sayin that they want whatever's inside of me💀💋
Thinking of you is a poison I drink often💀💋
When you wake up in your favorite shirt😋
Fire for every experience and an obsession for freedom💋