Man, I don't know what to do, I'm early on T and my parents hold me liliable to be 100% happy now because I'm on T and I can't be unhappy for anything without them being like oh it's t' s fault we are going to take it away, and I just feel like shit so cheers to that #art #cartoon #drawing #copic #sketch #ink #ocs #markers #ihatedrawing #anime #gelpens #edgy #cringy #artists #lining #tradational art #creative #colors #prismacolors #digitalart #characters
((TW:depression, sucide)) What if I told you guys that I am wearing a mask. What if I told you guys that right now despite my smiles and laughs I'm at another low point of my life. I'm so greatful for being able to start on t, now don't get me wrong on that. That was a very high level for me but lately other stuff has been dragging me down. I'm really starting to get fed up with two people and the third person I just want to give them a wake up slap and tell them off about all the bullshit the other events is more serious... Lately I just feel so un normal, I want to be a normal kid but I feel like a freak compared to everyone, it's not normal to feel the way I do and it's not a game, I feel like absolute shit and I just feel happy knowing I'm only injecting T in Me, but it doesn't last long because I'm only in the first month and nothing has happened that lowers my dysphoria I feel as if nobody would every want to date a freak like me, and I'll never be able to handle anything in life without being automatically feeling the urdge to just rip my chest out, it has me in dark places, like sometimes I question if I would just end it all and be born as a man, god my life would be so easy, but I can't rely on the belief of reincarnation to save my ass. So what can I do besides wait for these changes and take the hits that feel like stab wounds, almost everybody seems to be floating above the surface with their life of not having to worry about being viewed as a freak by others and feeling like nobody will love them because you can't even love yourself because you know your body is wrong, life just feels like a whole freak show right now, and I want it to stop.
Ah sorry you guys for not posting much, I've kinda been in and out of epidemics of mental healthy but Friday has kicked me back up! #art #cartoon #drawing #copic #sketch #ink #ocs #markers #ihatedrawing #anime #gelpens #edgy #cringy #artists #lining #tradational art #creative #colors #prismacolors #digitalart #characters