Let’s talk about self care! Self care is a huge part of recovery! We need to learn to look after ourselves and let our bodies rest after the damage that has been done! Reading late at night helps calm my mind and get me ready for sleep! I am currently reading this book right now and totally recommend! Some self care examples! 1) reading and drawing 2) napping 3) yoga 4) bath or shower 5) watching tv or a movie 6) painting your nails 7) meditation 8) stretching 9) enjoying nature 10) gardening 11) calm walk 12) face mask 13) going out for your fav drink or snack 14) laying in bed 15) petting your dog There are so many other examples of self care! Please leave some time during the day or week to put towards your mind, body, and soul ❤️ #balancednotclean #edrecovery #strongnotskinny #anorexiarecovery #weightrestored
consider this your daily reminder to stop romanticizing the bad parts. 💕 recovery might seem like the worst thing in the world sometimes, but it’s still always better than giving up. - #anorexiarecovery #weightrestored #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #anarecovery #eatingdisorder #anorexia #ana #anxiety #bpd #ocd #ed #recovery #feminism #empowerment #transgender #trans #nonbinary #lgbt #edwarrior #bodypositive #bopo #selflove #bopowarrior #bodypositivity #bodyacceptance
This was a brand new tub of hummus... and now it's gone 🤷🏻♀️ I have a tummy full hummy and I couldn't be happier! @lundbergfarms brown rice and quinoa thin stacker + @applegate oven roasted turkey breast + @wholefoods roasted red pepper hummus + zucchini + snap peas + red bell pepper + cauliflower + radishes + romaine lettuce + baby carrots #dinner #ricecake #turkey #hummus #veggies #food #healthy #postworkout #carbs protein #gains #glutenfree #ed #recovery #motivation #edsoldier #prorecovery #health #fitness #foodisfuel #strongnotskinny #fitnotthin #balancednotclean #weightrestored
Caught him off guard, but isn’t my dad just the cutest human being ever 💜 met him halfway between school and home for some sushi tonight to talk about some big plans and big changes. These past few days have been incredibly stressful with trying to get everything in order. Housing for next year, possibly transferring schools, figuring out pros and cons of different scenarios, etc. It’s stressful as f*ck. But that’s life. Sometimes it throws us for a loop and we have to remember the good things and be grateful for those who are here to help and support us. More updates to come soon 💕 Tags - - - - - - - - #mindfulness #breathing #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #recoverywin #bulking #selflove #instafit #eatittobeatit #nourishnotpunish #healthylifestyle #holistichealth #protein #training #train #weightrestored #yoga #fit #fitness #fitnessmotivation #fitfam #healthy #eatingdisorderrecovery #yogi #dairyfree #intuitive #fearfoodchallenge #intuitiveeating #sushi #noexercisetoday
Hello...it’s me...I just realised that my camera roll is way more ‘aesthetic’ than my instagram here, which begs the question - do I strive for an aesthetically pleasing and tasteful thematic body positive mental illness awareness vibing Instagram layout? OR do I keep it as it is? Do I open this question up to the floor? Maybe? I don’t know, it’s 1 am and I’m taking a reading break to coax the cat out from under the bed and consider important questions about Instagram. Izzy xx . . . . . . . . #instagram #flatlay #layout #theme #facebook #socialmedia #twitter #bookstagram #anxiety #anxietyrelief #anxietyrecovery #ocd #ocdmemes #ocdawareness #depressionquotes #depressionedits #bdd #bodydysmorphia #anorexiarecovery #anorexiaawareness #ana #bulimia #bulimiarecovery #anamiatips #selflove #bodypositivity #selfcare #weightrestored #bodyacceptance
What a way to end a night 🙌🏻 - - Ah Friday. My second favorite F word. My first is food. I swear.
. . Anorexia plays games with your mind. It lies and it deceives you. It bullies you and punishes you. . Your only crime? You're preparing your dinner. . But anorexia is straight on to you. You fat pig. You don't need that food, you've eaten far too much already. Look at the size of you. You disgust me. You'll never be thin. Look at that fat on you. You can't do anything right. You'll never succeed. . It's unbelievably cruel and will stop at nothing. BUT... . ...you're in recovery now. You're tired of this insidious, nagging voice but you know what you need to do. You've been here many times before and in the past you've succumbed. But no more. You're stronger now. You're wiser. You're not afraid to fight back. To literally fight for your life. . And it's worth fighting for. To experience love, life travel, education, friendship, happiness, excitement, comfort, kindness and so much more. And the food you shunned for oh so long actually tastes amazing. Yes, there's the guilt but that doesn't stop you enjoying it. You've found your love of food again. Your love of life again. . You deserve food. You deserve to feel nourished. You deserve to feel well. You deserve to be happy. You deserve to not suffer. You deserve to enjoy life. . You want pizza? Eat pizza. . Me + Food = Life ✨💖💫 . . . #pizzaislife #foodislife #fuckanorexia #anorexia #eatingdisorder #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #chooserecovery #weightrestored #motivation #inspiration #positivity #recoverywarrior #mentalillness #mentalhealth #ptsd #depression #anxiety #selfharm #health
. . Autumn has officially arrived in the UK. Storms, strong winds and torrential rain for a couple of days now with thunder and lightening forecast for tonight! ⛈🍂⚡️🍃💨🍁☔️ . Dinner was proper autumnal comfort food. Homemade cheese, potato and onion pie served with a mixed salad and baked beans. ☺️🥔🧀🥕🥗🌽👩🏼🍳 . . . #dinner #dinnertime #homecooking #homecook #cookingfromscratch #comfortfood #autumn #autumnshere #cheeseandpotatopie #cheeseandonionpie #cheeseandonion #cheesepotatoandonionpie #bakedbeans #salad
when the guy you like messages you but you don’t see it until twelve hours later 😒😂 btw guys!! I don’t know if this is a trigger warning? But I was weighed yesterday and I have put on 1kg+ since July! I have a bmi of nearly twenty!! I am actually so happy and proud of myself which is rlly unexpected. I’m so grateful to everyone!!! ❤️
Dessert earlier was banana with banana custard (absolute heaven 🙌🏼) after dinner which was Sweetcorn & Quinoa bites in Gf wraps with uncle bens mixed pepper rice, then evening snack was Gf pancakes with blackcurrant jam and vanilla milkshake. Breakfast this morning was Gf golden syrup porridge and apple juice, snack was a trek berry bar and orange juice, lunch was a Gf sandwich with Quorn ‘ham’, grapes and crisps, then afternoon snack was Gf Jaffa cakes and smoothie. Was at uni from 10am-12pm today and then got the train straight back to Perth and met my mum in town for a little while! Treated myself to a new coat, cropped sweater/hoodie (without a hood lol) and a top cause why not 😂 Then came home and watched ‘The Bodyguard’ and did some finished some notes from uni! How’s everybody else spent their Thursday? X #recovery #anorexia #anorexiafighter #eatingdisorder #edfamily #mealplan #fdoe #glutenfree #vegetarian #medicine #foodisfuel #weightrestored #keepgoing #staystrong #staypostive #strongnotskinny #keepfighting #mentalhealth #mentalhealthwarrior
Good night🌺🍉🍎 Dinner was good, I love fruits so much 😍😊 #dinner #food #watermelon #apple #pinklady #wassermelone #melon #fruits #peach #snack #fruitplate #foodblogger #blog #blogger #beauty #foodblog #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #eatingdisorder #ed #vegan #veggie #gym #protein #fitnessstudio #fitness #buildingmuscle #gainingweight #weightrestored #break
.meal plans, calories, macros, exchanges. are these things even good? honestly, i believe that any sort of mechanism to track your food intake can become incredibly destructive. you may think that it’s just to keep you healthy. you may say you’re just going to do it for a little while. this innocent decision can quickly become one’s biggest obsession. when my eating disorder began, i was all about the calories and the quality of my food. if it was not 100% certified organic, i would not eat it. if it was not paleo, i would not eat it. if a single meal was over 600 calories, i wouldn’t allow myself to eat for 24 hours. these rules that i developed were incredibly unhealthy and illogical. when i was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa, i started seeing a dietician who placed me on a meal plan. we never discussed calories. of course, i had memorized the calorie content of most foods, but i was forced to challenge myself and ignore that aspect. it’s so funny to me how culture puts such a bad label on what a calorie is. a calorie is a unit of measurement. it is energy. this energy is consumed through food and is dispersed throughout our bodies so that we can live. why on earth should we limit or be scared of giving our body the energy that it desperately needs?! the mind can be deceiving. yes, an over abundance of calories causes weight gain. but what is the likelihood that, with a balanced and healthy mindset, you will allow yourself more than what you know you can handle? the issue in our world today is that we are so obsessed with numbers. we must be in control. we loose touch of our senses and truly don’t know what is good for us. when i began refeeding to restore my weight, my meal plan was based on exchanges. to avoid the unhealthy calorie talk, i was assigned to eat a certain serving of starches, proteins, fats, fruits, dairy, and vegetables every day. this is what food is. your body understands what it is getting from what you feed it and breaks it down according to instinct. cereal is broken down as a carb. bread is also broken down as a carb. a potato is broken down as a carb. it is our mind that deceives us into thinking that these foods are processed (cont)
I present my dog helping me take selfies.... she has literally been following me around all day- I feel so loved!! This is my #ootd or as I like to call it 'the remaining clothes left in my wardrobe after I've packed for uni'. Yes, that's right; uni starts in a week on Sunday and I'll be back to the things I do best, but this time in a healthy body and approach!! Uni can be a really daunting time; despite loving it in kinda scared to go back. You're forced to be a lot more independent and I think that frightens me because then I have to take responsibility for my health. But I guess that's part of growing up. Anyhoo things are going okay.... I'm back on track with my meal plan now which is positive!! The team and I have a plan in place for when I do return to uni, and I have literally so much support its suffocating 🙃 there goes my independence.... I'm still in control of my health, but people are there to check up on me and see how I'm getting on. To anyone whose nervous about uni; just go for it!! You only get this opportunity once, maybe twice in a lifetime so you should try and seize every opportunity that comes your way. And that goes for life in general too; don't wait for extraordinary things to land at your feet, create your own amazing adventure!! Lots of love to you all 🙃 oh also I got discharged to outpatient yesterday!! Yay, whoo me!!
Yes, I did eat an entire pint of ice cream with my waffles this morning 🍨 Salted caramel protein waffles: 1 packet @questnutrition salted caramel protein powder + 2 @egglandsbest egg whites + 1/3 cup @almondbreeze unsweetened vanilla almond milk + 1/4 cup @quaker quick oats + @sweetleafstevia caramel sweet drops Toppings: @swell.foods salted caramel ice cream pint + @target simply balanced dark chocolate almond butter + @driscollsberry strawberries + @chiquitabrands banana #breakfast #waffles #banana #strawberry #caramel #protein #gains #proteinwaffles #recipe #darkchocolate #nutbutter #healthy #food #saltedcaramel #icecream #pintparty #ed #recovery #motivation #edsoldier #prorecovery #health #fitness #foodisfuel #strongnotskinny #fitnotthin #balancednotclean #weightrestored
Hey hey my friends and happy Thursday!! Today’s a not so busy day for me but I’ve got a lot to get done! 📚📚📚 went to the guy this morning before class 🏋🏼♀️ and then I have a (much needed) psychologist appointment between my classes today and then lots of notes and cue cards to get done afterwards 📖🤓 so that pretty much sums up my Thursday 😂👌🏻 anyways I hope you guys are having a good week, one more day Timmy he freaking weekend!! Xoxo
Hey my lovelies 🌸 long time no post! So much has happened in the last 10 days! 😅 I have started tutoring again, I’ve gone clubbing for the first time, spent a whole day out with my brother, cousins and new friends and another evening out, had my first shift back at work aaand... I’ve had most of orientation week at uni! 🙌🏻 All of these are things that I would’ve once found too difficult or overwhelming, yet here I am now doing them all at the same time and enjoying myself! At uni, I’ve actually socialised and made a group of “friends” (not sure I can call them that yet, but still). Before, at events like this, I would’ve spent my time hiding in the toilets 😕 On Tuesday, I had a challenging lunch with people I had just met and spent a good 2 hour break chilling with them. Guys, I would’ve never been able to do that before! 😭🙌🏻💖 Food-wise, I’ve been challenging myself and loving it! 💪🏻 Mood-wise, I’ve been the best I’ve been in a while! 😁 I don’t want to jinx it but, at the moment, I feel like there’s more to me and my life than mental illness and, my God, does it feel good! 😭 I feel like a whole different person! Of course, not everything is perfect all the time, but the point is I’m getting through the bumps quickly and with healthy coping mechanisms and the positives are outweighing the negatives by far 🌈 Recovery is so so worth it! 😍😊 - Also, tHiS bIsCoFf MiLkShAkE wAs HeAvEn! 😍😍😍 . . . #anorexia #anorexianervosa #anorexic #ana #anarecovery #anawho #ed #edfam #edfamily #ednos #edrecovery #edsoldier #edwarrior #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #recover #recovery #prorecovery #depression #anxiety #strongnotskinny #recoveryisworthit #nourishtoflourish #edcommunity #beatinged #recoverywin #nourishnotpunish #prorecovery #weightrestored
Wahnsinn, ich bin einfach schon seit einer Woche entlassen. Momentan ist alles schwierig, ich vermisse die Klinik unglaublich sehr, das Einleben in eine Wohngruppe fällt mir bei weitem nicht so leicht wie in eine Klinik, weil ich krampfhaft versuche an meinem alten Alltag, der mir ganz viel Halt&Geborgenheit gegeben hat, festzuhalten und die Essstörung immer lauter wird, weil die Strukturen der Wohngruppe viel zu sehr in meine eigene Tagesplanung eingreifen. Außerdem bekomme ich vom lieben Jugendamt nur 2€ Essensgeld pro Tag und kann mir davon beim besten Willen nicht die Richtmenge leisten. Aber ich will nicht nur meckern: Paris hatte auch echt wunderschöne Momente und meine Schulsozialarbeiterin fängt mich gerade auf wo sie nur kann. Es gibt mir so viel Sicherheit einen Menschen zu haben, der nach einem Blick von mir genau weiß wie es mir geht, weil ich mich nicht hinter einer Maske von sekundären Emotionen verstecken kann. Wie es mit mir weitergeht weiß ich noch nicht so wirklich. Jeder erwartet, dass ich in der Wohngruppe bleibe bis ich mit meinem Abi fertig bin, zu meinen Eltern zurück zu gehen ist sowieso keine Option, aber bereits nach einer Woche habe ich das Gefühl, dass mich das Anpassen an die Regeln kaputt macht. Dass die Kontrolle, die mir die Symptomatik bieten würde, mit jedem Tag verlockender wird, weil sie mir in allen anderen Bereichen gerade komplett genommen wird.
. . Believe in yourself. Believe in your dreams. . You can do anything you want if you put your mind to it. If you want it enough. You just need to have faith in your abilities. Believe in your skills and talents. Believe that you can. . Believe in YOU! ✨💖💫 . . . #morning #goodmorning #morningmotivation #believeinyou #believeinyourself #believeinyourdreams #believeyoucan #youcandoanything #believe
Weißt du Dinge werden wahr, wenn man sie oft genug sagt, sie oft genug - heute wird ein schöner Tag. Komm wir machen mal das Fenster auf das Radio laut, Lass frischen Wind herein und alle alte Zweifel heraus, Wenn du fest daran glaubst, dann wirst du glücklich und heute gibt es Grapefruit zum Frühstück. 🍊🥖 (Julia Engelmann) #grapefruit #juliaengelmann #obst #laugenstange #frühstück #Bodyimage #weightrestored #körperschemastörung #magersucht #ed #es #edfighter #recoveryisworthit #Depression #eatingdisorderrecovery #edwarrior #bulemie #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexie #recoveryispossible #againstana #Recovery #anorexiarecovery #essstörung #lebenfreude
Lunch today 😋 - - So for the first time in a while I’ve felt relatively good. It was the first real warm, spring day here and I think that may have something big to do with it. I talked to mum about what I’d found on seasonal depression and she thinks it’s quite accurate. At least now I have something to explain the way I’ve been feeling and acting lately 🤷🏼♀️ I guess there’s a silver lining to every situation 😌 - - Alrighty my dudes, keep on fighting and keep on ignoring that shit in your head, ok? You’re worth it 🙌🏻❤️
I’ve been trying to have at least three different dinners each week. We all focus on weight as the one determinant of ed recovery but now that I’m weight restored, I want every other aspect of my life to be restored. I want to go to the supermarket and be like damn I know I was going to make risotto but I actually really feel like tacos 🌮 Isn’t weird how a decision as simple as that can still fire up ED thoughts 🤦♀️ it’s like ED just never wants you to enjoy a meal because thats against the rules. Well screw it cause I made the tacos and I had four cause no way two was enough. And yah I use baked beans cause it reminds me of my childhood xxx
Spring has finally sprung 🌻🌸🌳🦋 and about damn time too. - - Now I’m never one for ‘self-diagnosing’ but I have recently began to come to terms that I do, I think, struggle with SAD (seasonal affective disorder), or at least I relate to it. It’s a mood disorder that has a seasonal pattern (most common in winter). For the past six months I’ve been unable to explain my sudden irritability, anxiety and inability to concentrate, I’ve been feeling tired and lethargic, absolutely not wanting to go out and be social and having poor sleep. It’s not a common disorder, I never heard of it, but some research led me here. It has something to do with your production of serotonin, which slows down with fewer hours of sunlight. Or because it’s much more darker more levels of melatonin are made, which is controlled by darkness. Just some food for thought here, but it would definitely explain a lot.✌🏻💕
Low mood be ruining my day
on wednesdays we wear our favourite ass-kicking boots and take no shit 💖🌈🌻 (AKA am i grunge yet?) #anorexiarecovery #weightrestored #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #anarecovery #eatingdisorder #anorexia #ana #anxiety #bpd #ocd #ed #recovery #feminism #empowerment #transgender #trans #nonbinary #lgbt #edwarrior #bodypositive #bopo #selflove #bopowarrior #bodypositivity #bodyacceptance
Good morning my loves 🤗🌻 the sun is shining today and I am in slightly higher spirits ☺️ gonna make my day off a good one! Sending y’all love ❤️ - - Ps this was my snack last night 😋😋
. . 1 in 4 people suffer with mental illness at some point in their lives. Those are big numbers, up there with heart disease, cancer & diabetes, & potentially, just as deadly. . The difference is that if you were diagnosed with a physical illness, you wouldn't hesitate to seek treatment. You wouldn't delay getting the medication & treatments that you needed. You wouldn't hide it from friends, family & colleagues because you feel ashamed. You wouldn't sneak off for therapy or to see your psychiatrist because you're terrified that you'll be spotted. You wouldn't feel mortified at the mere thought of being in a psychiatric hospital. . With a physical illness you'd get sympathy from friends, family & your employers. People wouldn't feel embarrassed to ask how you were. You'd get offers of support & help. You wouldn't be judged, ignored or have it suggested that you 'choose' to be ill. You could be open & honest & tap into your support network for all of your needs. . But nobody chooses to have a mental illness anymore than they would a physical illness. Who would choose a life of mental torment, loss of opportunity, failure after failure, medication & the side effects that go with it, being patronised & judged & watching life pass you by while you sometimes struggle to get out of bed, have a shower or walk to the shops? . Those of us who have experienced mental illness need to speak out. Whether yours was a mild, short lived illness, a more serious occurrence or something that will need life long medication & management - there is no shame. It is what it is. . We need to speak out on behalf of those who don't feel able to. We need to speak out so that the next generation don't attach such stigma to mental illness. We need to speak out to make society recognise the prevalence of mental illness. We need to speak out so that doctors & nurses gain a better understanding of mental illness. We need to speak out so that more specialist facilities & funding are made available. . We're not crazy. We won't hurt you. It's not catching. We can still be excellent students, good parents & valuable employees in spite of our diagnosis. . Here's hoping for acceptance & change ✨💖💫
Heyy my wonderful friends happy Wednesday!! 🐪🐫 Today was/is filled with notes and flash cards for me but took a lil study break to get in a quick lift and hen back to the books for me 🤷🏼♀️📚 • Gonna be honest with you guys here because I’ve always said that I’m going to be real on this account. So here’s the truth. I’ve been struggling with my depression a lot lately. I’ve dipped pretty low and I’ve almost been sent the the ER a couple times. I honestly can’t say what triggered it, or if anything triggered it at all. But it’s there and it’s coming at me with full force. • Last night after class I talked to one of my old nurses who also happens to be a prof. She wouldn’t leave me alone with myself and brought me to my psychiatrist. After talking through everything, I felt a lot better and felt safe enough to go home, so I did. And I did a lot of self care last night. • Tomorrow I have a psychologist appointment and I know that will help too. For now I’ve just really gotta lean on my supports and do a lot of self care. And that’s okay, but I’m gonna make it out of this! • Anyways I hope you guys are having a good week! I’m sorry this post wasn’t all sunshine’s and rainbows but that’s the reality of where I’m at right now! But don’t worry, I’m still fighting 💕 love you guys
Food is fuel 💪🏼 So today I went for an induction at my uni’s gym with my friend and started dipping my toe back into the pool of exercise! Was shown how to use some of the machines and then had a little practice for 10 minutes and that was it, felt like that was a nice way to ease myself back in and test myself. I’m aiming to go twice a week for about half an hour tops and want to focus on building my strength and muscle, NOT burning calories and ‘allowing’ myself to eat like anorexia made me do before. I WON’T be constantly thinking about it, I WON’T be going on an empty stomach, I WON’T be pushing myself way beyond my limit and I WON’T be depriving my body from the rest it needs afterwards. It’s taken me SO long to get back to this point that there’s no way I’m going backwards now. So before even just my 10 minutes of briefly going on the cross trainer I fuelled up on my morning snack which was a trek bar and orange juice, my lunch which was a hot cross bun (and then my bounty after the gym) and breakfast before all of that was Gf Rice Krispies & milk, Gf fruit toast and orange juice, afternoon snack was Gf biscuits and smoothie (on the super windy bus journey home thanks to storm Ali 😂), dinner was *new* @orgran_healthandnutrition Rice pasta in veg sauce with Gf pitta’s followed by two pots of *new* bannoffee pie yoghurt, then evening snack was Gf pancakes with marmalade and vanilla milkshake! In my Counselling lecture at uni today we were discussing recovery and learning about the ins and outs of it and I found it motivated me all over again!! The past couple of weeks have been so tough but learning and training in Counselling is almost like getting that little bit extra for myself. I’d love to share some of the stuff I’m reading and learning, let me know if you’d like to see it! Hope you’ve all had a great day x #recovery #anorexia #anorexiafighter #eatingdisorder #edfamily #mealplan #fdoe #glutenfree #vegetarian #medicine #foodisfuel #weightrestored #keepgoing #staystrong #staypostive #strongnotskinny #keepfighting #mentalhealth #mentalhealthwarrior
These throw it all together and have your soda on the side #dinner s tend to have the best taste! This time it was falafels with quinoa, hasselback potatoes, avocado, chia seeds, carrot sticks, hummus, sesame seeds, cucumber, brussel sprouts, lettuce and nooch plus to drink a cherry coke!🙌🏻 - While changing to high school after nine years of comprehensive school I’ve noticed that only our own attitude matters when it comes to stressing over exams. I always used to think that my teachers and classmates will judge me if I don’t do well in a test. Now I’m slowly building a new way of thinking and learning to not care about others’ opinions. In reality no one will mind if you are not always perfect because they are not like that either. Yesterday I screwed up my math exam but so what. They say that your life isn’t yours if you constantly care what others think. I say it’s more than true.🙏🏻
Uh huh honey 🍑🍯 Two toasted @vansfoods 8 whole grain waffles + scrambled @egglandsbest eggs (one whole, four whites) + @gardein seven grain crispy tenders + three nectarines + @siggisdairy vanilla yogurt + lots of bee pollen and honey on everything #breakfast #wafflewednesday #honey #eggs #yogurt #vanilla #chickenandwaffles #waffles #scrambledeggs #peach #chickentenders #plantbased #protein #gains #postworkout #healthy #food #ed #recovery #motivation #edsoldier #prorecovery #health #fitness #foodisfuel #strongnotskinny #fitnotthin #balancednotclean #weightrestored
Hallo Leute, 🙋 Ich habe gerade endlich die Kartoffeln von Samstag in den Schrank eingeräumt. Ich war mit meiner Mutter auf dem Kartoffelfest auf der Domäne und es war sehr schön. Ich habe eine Kuh gestreichelt und wir haben unsere eigenen Kartoffeln geerntet, die Linda, das Bamberger Hörnchen und der blaue Schwede. Von ganz schön großen bis kaum Erbsengröße War alles dabei, 13 Kilo Bio Kartoffeln die wir zuhause nach Größe sortiert haben. Ich muss sagen die Linda schmeckt mir am besten. 😁 Jetzt brauche ich eure Hilfe: Da wir jetzt Gefühlt ein Jahr Kartoffeln Essen müssen, was sind eure Lieblingsrezepte/ Lieblingsessen mit Kartoffeln? Bitte lasst mir ein Kommentar da und lasst eurer Phantasie freien Lauf! ❤🥔 #kartofflen #kartoffelfest #domäne #ausgewogen #selflove #Bodyimage #weightrestored #körperschemastörung #magersucht #ed #es #edfighter #recoveryisworthit #Depression #eatingdisorderrecovery #edwarrior #bulemie #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexie #recoveryispossible #againstana #Recovery #anorexiarecovery #essstörung #lebenfreude
ive been eating oatmeal almost every morning recently because it’s such a fall food!! plus it keeps me so satisfied. i’ve been keeping it quite “plain” though and only have been adding zucchini, vanilla extract, and pumpkin pie spice to my oats. i dunno, this breakfast just makes me feel super happy and it’s absolutely delicious. i’ve almost finished the whole jar of almond butter that i just opened ~2 weeks ago by myself. whoops🤷🏼♀️ are there any staple foods that scream FALL for you? 9.19.18
Pre-soccer training snack- a @questnutrition birthday cake quest bar, an apple and a crumpet with blueberry maple syrup 😋 - - Have not being doing well lately. I don’t enjoy anything anymore and I don’t feel anything either. Yeah I’ll feel ok, but I can’t remember the last time I was actually happy. So I’m going back to see my GP and therapist regularly, which I don’t wanna do but I know it’s probably the best thing at the moment. So yeah, not much positivity over here at the moment, but I’m not giving up just yet don’t y’all worry bout that 😘❤️ hope everyone has had a happy #humpday 🤗
Okay so I homemade vegan pizza last night for the family... It was so good. Everything from scratch. So pleased with how it came out. Obviously goes without saying that pizza was a huge fear food. Dough, cheese, toppings, and of course it's very yummy so one slice just won't do. Cooking used to frighten me too, I used to bake foods like this, bake cakes and pies ect and never let myself eat the finished product. Like I wanted to be near food, surrounded by it, but never allowed to eat it. If I Rationalise that behaviour, and try and make sense of why... I think it's because my body was sending signals to my brain to be around food, because it was in malnutrition, then my brain took that information and unfortunately Ana sort of controlled that part of me for a long time. So I was allowed to feed not be fed. So I used to feed feed feed others, watch people enjoy nourishing there bodies with food. So last night after cooking, I sat at the dinner table with my family and scoffed my pizza down me. Granted I could only manage two or three slices, but I stopped eating because I was full not because I had to. Keep going my beauties, it really is a great life once you start living it. Letting go is hard but holding on is harder I promise. #keepgoing #recovery #recoveryisworthit #veganlife #vegancheese #veganpizza #cooking #homemadepizza #anorexiarecovery #youareenough #youarebeautiful #gainingweightiscool #anorexia #weightrestored #happiness #family
. . None of us are in a position to judge others. You don't know what's gone before and you haven't walked in their shoes. . You may see mental illness, failure to thrive, failed exams and relationships, inability to hold down a job, alcohol/drug abuse or someone who just appears numb to the world, distant and lost. But don't define them by that. That's just what you see on the outside. . Rather than judging them, reach out and offer support. Offer friendship, kindness, compassion and encouragement. Help them to help themselves. To start the lengthy healing process and put the pieces of their life back together. . Treat them the way you would like to be treated because one day it could be you in that position ✨💖💫 . . . #morning #goodmorning #morningmotivation #dontjudge #dontjudgeothers #reachout #offerhelp #dontjudgesomeonebytheirpast #kindness #compassion #helptoheal #helpthemtohelpthemselves
Life is so much more than the number on the scale! The amount of happy moments with your family& friends, The new movie in the cinema, Travelling the world and seeing as much as possible of it, Enjoying that piece of cake, Waking up and thinking Damn today my hair looks great! And oh, my tan is on fleek! Planning how to spend the night at the fireplace and not what youll go to eat when sitting alone at home with no friends, Enjoying music, Enjoying your old interests again! Make some new experience and let go of whats killing you, life has so much to offer, its better when youre free! Kick Ana in her ass, take that cookie and step off the scale. Live, here I come again!
Take a deep breath and remember who the fuck you are. - - My mental illnesses do not define who I am. I am more than my eating disorder, anxiety, ocd and depression. I am a friend. I am an animal lover. I am a daughter. I am a granddaughter. I am a sister. I graduated high school. I am going to university. I am going to have a future. I am someone who has been through hell and back, who continues to have obstacles thrown her way with no signs of relenting and yet I am still here. Still here fighting because I have hope that the future for me will be better, because hope is the only thing stronger than fear 🙌🏻🌻
Peak a boo, I miss you
I need this in my life again
I can’t catch a break. Woke up this morning with a cold on top of EVERYTHING ELSE 🙄 great start to the day. Yep. It’s fine.
Skewllll gym selfie✌️ did an insane treadmill workout and hated it :-) pushes through it but I’ll stick to my cardio in hiit workout form thank u very much🤪 but it was a really challenging workout and it’s good to mix it up!! No real advice, motivational stuff tonight though folks... instead I’ll through this treadmill workout below so if you’re into it save and give it a try and if you’re not keep scrolling and amuse yourself with the fact that I sweat like a horse today in front of lots of pretty boys in the gym👍😄 • • 🤩 5 min warm up jog 🤩 1 min - fast speed, 2% incline • 🤩 1 min - fast, 4% 🤩 1 min - fast 6% • 🤩 1 min - fast 8% • 🤩 2 min - recovery walk at 1% 🤩 repeat above but at 4%, 6%, 8%, 10% ... still recover at 2 min 1% • 🤩 repeat again but at 6%, 8%, 10%, 12%.... recover at 2 min 1% • 🤩 5 min cool down jog
Giving another shoutout today... this time it's going out to my roommate for getting me hooked on nutritional yeast Ground @perduechicken cooked in @delmonte chili style canned tomatoes and cilantro + zucchini + onion + orange bell peppers + broccoli slaw + radishes + @greengiant cauliflower rice medley + @woodstockfoods sweet peas + lots of nutritional yeast #dinner #chicken #veggies #healthy #food #burritobowl #tacotuesday #postworkout #protein #gains #tacobowl #peppersandonions #ed #recovery #motivation #edsoldier #prorecovery #nutritionalyeast #health #fitness #foodisfuel #strongnotskinny #fitnotthin #balancednotclean #weightrestored
Breakfast this morning was banana on Gf fruit toast and apple juice, morning snack was a cocoa hike bar and apple juice carton, lunch was a Gf teacake with marmalade, crisps and Gf gingerbread men, afternoon snack was Gf biscuits and orange, mango and passion fruit smoothie, dinner was Sweetcorn & Quinoa bites with jacket potato & beans followed by 2 pots of *new* Turkish delight yoghurt and evening snack was Gf pancakes with jam and vanilla milkshake. Got the bus through to Uni in Dundee today for the first time which took longer but worked out cheaper than the train on a day that I have an early start which is good, kind of worth getting up at 5.50am for I guess 😂🤷♀️ Having to install a new version of Microsoft office on my laptop because mine has stopped working so I’m a bit stressed because I can’t get work that I wanted to do done tomorrow morning and might need to retake notes that I had already typed but I’m telling myself it’s not the end of the world, because it really isn’t! Positive from today though was that I really enjoyed my lecture this morning and found it so interesting, we spoke about why psychologists study animals and basically how they think compared to us and I loved it! Hope you’ve all had a great day, and if not...remember it’s not the end of the world😚 #recovery #anorexia #anorexiafighter #eatingdisorder #edfamily #mealplan #fdoe #glutenfree #vegetarian #medicine #foodisfuel #weightrestored #keepgoing #staystrong #staypostive #strongnotskinny #keepfighting #mentalhealth #mentalhealthwarrior
Making overnight oats during the day time for this work filled evening was wisdom! #nightsnack was blueberry pie overnight oats topped with banana, cinnamon, chocolate, granola, strawberries, raspberries and cookie spread plus a chocolate chip cookie dough questbar!👅 - Great news guys: the long-awaited psychotherapist has finally been found! I’m not sure if she is the one I’ll start therapy with but at least I’m not just in the queue anymore. The psychotherapy will be a long process which feels a bit scary but at least I’m doing so well that I have strenght to dig a bit deeper. We’re currently having exam weeks at school which increases the amount of stress and makes me feel drained. Between studying I’m trying my hardest to find those small moments when I can just focus on myself and relax. The most important thing is always to take care of yourself!🙏🏻
Such a big #recoverywin for me💪 TWO basically cheeses (basically FRIED) with cranberry jam and toast 🍞🧀 this used to be my all time favorite meal but I easily get very scared of it 😶 but today I managed BOTH cheeses and even a night snack afterwards 😍 Another smash in Ana's face😌 What is your favorite food?💕 #recovery #realrecovery #recoveryforhappiness #recoverydiary #realrecoverydiary #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anawho #anarecovery #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderawareness #eatingdisorder #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eating #embracethesquish #edwarrior #2fab4ana #toofab4ana #weightrestored #weightrestoration #borderlinepersonalitydisorder
. . Anorexia. . It's one of the most screwed up, sick, insidious illnesses you could find. . Not only is it so misunderstood & judged, it's also unbelievably cruel. It has the highest death rate of any mental illness & yet manages to convince the sufferer that they're okay, don't need help & are fine just as they are. . It's a serious illness where the sufferer doesn't want help & resists any attempts to initiate recovery. The anorexic voice is so plausible, it tells you that everything will be fine if you just follow the rules. If you just eat a bit less. If you lose some more weight. Exercise a bit more. But it's NEVER enough. . The goal posts keep moving. You'll never be good enough for anorexia, never good enough for anyone or anything, not good enough for life. Not worthy of taking up space or existing. . Bit by bit anorexia takes you over. You become anorexia, no room for anything else. Every kilo you lose steals away a little piece of you. A piece of your health, a piece of your mind, a piece of your social life, a piece of your future, a piece of everything you used to be. And if you don't stop, it will take your life too. . It lies to you. Deceives you. Encourages you. Insults you. Punishes you. Bullies you. Takes away your confidence & self esteem. Manipulates you. Controls you. Slowly kills you. . You fight back but then you slip up & you're pulled back down again. Powerless to take on anorexia. You're in too deep. Out of your depth & you didn't even see it coming. You're drained. Exhausted. Far easier to give in. To give up. . You can't imagine living this way any longer. Hungry, cold, ill, lonely, isolated, no qualifications, no job, no relationships, no anything. Life moving on around you while you stay stuck in time. . But you can't imagine recovery either. It seems too far out of reach. You can't tolerate all of that food in you, to gain weight, to see a healthy body looking back at you. . You're at a crossroads. Do you succumb to the illness & cut your life short? Do you choose recovery & go through all of the mental anguish that goes with it? Or do you just stay stuck where you are? Not living nor dying? . It's your choice. Choose wisely ✨💖💫
I cannot wait to be out of school so I can have Sweet Potato Tacos 😩🌮 #tacotuesday 💯 (deets below!) • Lately I’ve been trying to live more and just experience things as they come to me. A little thing I keep reminding myself is the saying “I’m here for a good time not a long time” 🤭 It’s kind of a silly saying but it can mean a lot if you think about it 💭 To me it means to make the most of every opportunity because you won’t always have the chance to do it again. Whether that be eating a piece of cake that you are unsure of or going out with friends instead of going for a run, I just try to keep that in saying in mind when making the decision ☺️ • Deets ➡️ Spinach base (hidden under there lol), scrambled tofu mixed with taco seasoning, sautéed yellow onion and bell peppers, black beans, Green Giant frozen corn mix, baked sweet potato with taco seasoning, and a boat load of salsa 🔥
Werbung | Wenn du fliegen könntest, wo würdest du hin wollen? Man ehrlich, wir alle hätten doch gerne Flügel oder ? Ich meine wie cool wäre es wenn man halt echt fliegen könnte 😂😂😂 wer ist auch früher immer von Bänken gesprungen mit den Armen wedelnd als könnte man fliegen in der Hoffnung man sei außerirdisch und eine Fee 🙋🏼♀️🙋🏼♀️🙋🏼♀️😂😂 Jaaa oh Gott ich war mit @antonia_delacroix eh der größte WINX FAN EVER 😍😍😍😂 Ist im insgeheim immer noch mein Traum: kann ich bitte Bloom sein ?🤓 okay Ende mit der vielen Fantasie. Schönen Abend euch 💖💖💖
Shoutout to my boyfriend for picking me this pretty little flower so I can enjoy breakfast with a view 🌻 Stovetop @coachsoats prepared prepared in @twiningstea lavender Earl grey tea + @questnutrition banana cream protein powder + @lovebeets beet root powder + @siggisdairy blueberry yogurt + @chiquitabrands banana + @driscollsberry blackberries + natural crunch @sunbutter + @oatmegabar wild blueberry grass fed whey protein bar + @purely_elizabeth blueberry hemp granola + @chuaochocolatier honey comb dark chocolate + bee pollen #breakfast #oatmeal #berries #banana #yogurt #blueberry #proteinbar #flower #granola #nutbutter #sunbutter #food #healthy #postworkout #gains #protein #carbs #sunflower #ed #recovery #motivation #edsoldier #prorecovery #health #fitness #foodisfuel #strongnotskinny #fitnotthin #balancednotclean #weightrestored
Happy Tush Tuesday my doodes!! This morning I got up and went straight to the gym and killed the booty 🍑🍑 it was so nice to be back in the gym after a few days off! Now I’ve Got my first exam of the semester (yikes) 😅 super stressed but I think I’m ready for it!! • After that I’m just catching up on notes and hanging with friends and really doing things that make my heart happy! This week is my week to focus on myself and my health so I’m gonna make sure I’m filling my time with what truly makes me happy (and school work too lol) • Anywaysss a little announcement for oh guys: I am now an ambassador for @kora.fitness ❗️❕❗️ Guys I really really like this company. Every piece of clothing you buy you can choose a charity to give back to. Whether it’s mental health, human sex trafficking, hunger, or water, you are helping to make a difference and I think that’s amazing!! They also have some really cute workout clothes!! So go check it out, the links in my bio! “cheyennelindsay” gets you 15% off 😊 • I hope you all have a great day!! Love youuu
Some of my reasons to recover! There are thousands more! Make yourself a list and start living again!🍃🌺🌱 #edrecovery #recovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #fitfam #fitfood #lowcarb #calories #lowcalories #fearfood #fearfoodchallenge #recoverywin #minniemaud #weightrestored #bodypositivity #healthyfood #healthy #eatingdisorder #strongnotskinny #fuckyouana #staystrong #edfam #recoverymeal #gainingweight
Hey guys. I decided to share my #edrecovery & feelings with you, cause I think recovery is hard, there are ups and downs. #healingisntlinear !🍂 To my person: -I am a half german half american -I am 16 years old -I was inpatient once and it was the worst time in my life. -I started minnie maud in june till end of august and gained 9kgs🌻 (I am really proud because I hold the weight and didnt lost it again -I relapsed in june for the third time after being inpatient because I hated the way I looked after all the weight gain -Im anorexic since august 2017 -I lost 30kgs in 8 months because of shitty anorexia!🙎🏼♀️ -I still have to gain about 6kgs, maybe more, but I dont care because I am beautiful and I love myself the way I am! -I am in therapy -I always loved baking&cooking 🍳 -I am slightly addicted to pie, cake& cookies 🍪🥧 -I self harmed for about a year because of a boy (this was before anorexia) So feel free to ask me anything!💞🌻 I speak german, english, french, a little spanish& a little chinese!
Hallo Freunde, 🙋 gestern gab es diese leckere Kartoffelgratin mit Käse. 😊 Heute ist ein voller Tag, erst war ich mit zwei Freundinnen in einem Cafe, dann habe ich meine Donuts geholt, wenn meine beste Freundin im Urlaub ist kriege ich ihre Gutscheine auch, und jetzt bin ich auf dem Weg zur Therapie. Und es ist so warm heute. Ich muss sagen soziale Interaktionen sind für mich eher anstrengend, aber auch schön. Am Ende meiner schlimmsten Zeit, habe ich auch wenn ich eine Verabredung hatte, nur an Essen gedacht. Mittlerweile vergesse ich die ES fast, wenn ich mit Freunden unterwegs bin. Solche Treffen tun mir schon gut, wenn es mir einigermaßen geht. Aber für mich ist auch immer wichtig, Pausen und freie Tage einzuplanen. Wie ist es bei euch, seit ihr lieber immer unterwegs, gibt euch das Kraft oder braucht ihr auch Pausen um neue Kraft zu tanken? #kartoffelgratin #Käse #Rosmarin #pausen #balance #Freunde #ausgewogen #selflove #Bodyimage #weightrestored #körperschemastörung #magersucht #ed #es #edfighter #recoveryisworthit #Depression #eatingdisorderrecovery #edwarrior #bulemie #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexie #recoveryispossible #againstana #Recovery #anorexiarecovery #essstörung #lebenfreude
А еще у меня был очень вкусный завтрак. 😋😋😋 Такие маффины готовятся супер быстро, съедаются ещё быстрее 😄😄😄 . . Состав: 🍅 2 яйца 🍅 ветчина (совсем чуть-чуть, для аромата😄, грамм 20 буквально достаточно 🍅 шпинат (замороженный, пару шариков). Перед приготовлением нужно залить кипятком, чтобы быстро разморозить 🍅 лук репчатый, немножко 🍅 помидор один небольшой 🍅 грибы (любые можно, лучше перед этим немного припустить их на сковороде. У меня в свободном доступе японские грибы bunashimeji, они очень нежные, и быстро готовятся, поэтому я их предварительно не обжариваю, похожи на опята ) 🍅 творог или мягкий сыр (совсем чуток, грамм 20-30) . Все ингредиенты нарезаем, смешиваем с яйцом и творогом /сыром, солим, перчим. Выкладываем в силиконовые формы для маффинов и отправляем в духовку при 200 градусах на 20 минут примерно или до готовности. . . #weightwatchers360 #weightmanagement #weightlose #weightlost #weightcontrol #weightlosschallenge #weightlosstips #weightrestored #weightwatchersworks #weightwatchersgirl #weighteatcherslife #eat #eatguide #eater #eatingfortheinsta #eatfamous #eats #eating #eatwellbewell #eatrealfood #eatclean #eatplants #eattherainbow #eatandshout #cook #cooking #cook_good #cookingvideo #cookpad #cookmypassion
Pre-gym snack 😋 - - So lately I’ve been feeling really low. Like, bursting into tears spontaneously but I just can’t because I don’t have the emotional energy to, self-harming and even thoughts of ending it all have entered my head again. Things have been mega rough lately, it just seems the world hates me at the moment. But I know that these ‘moods’ happen, I’ve had heaps after all, and that they always end, so until then I just need to tough it out. I know I’m not ok, so I don’t expect to have good days. I just have days. Days were I just stay alive, feed myself properly, go through the motions and to NOT GIVE UP ON MYSELF. It will get better. It will 🙌🏻💕
I need to remember this (also reached my 1k post ⚡️)
❌STOP GIVING FOOD MORAL VALUE❌ • When someone tells you they’ve been ‘bad’ that day, the awful thing is that we all know that translates to ‘I’ve eaten less nutritious food’. This is bullshit peeps. • Having a good or bad day should have nothing to do with your food choices. Eating kale doesn’t make you good, it doesn’t make you ‘clean’; just like a piece of cake doesn’t make you bad, it doesn’t make you dirty or worse than someone that’s not had a slice (tbh I’d be jealous if I was the kale-eater🤷🏻♀️). • Yes, food can be more or less nutritious, and your food choices can vary for SO MANY REASONS - if you’re on your period, going through a breakup, training for a marathon, celebrating a birthday, feeling cold, etc. Some days you might crave cookies, and the next you’ll crave nectarines. And THAT’S OKAY💜 • For many in ED recovery, it’s also not possible to always make more nutritious choices, as we’ve denied ourselves these ‘forbidden, bad’ foods for so long, that our body wants them. (Just a PSA that once you start to relearn intuitively eating, you’ll crave a huge range of different foods, and I promise that eating whole pints of ice cream on end does eventually calm down once your body knows it can have ice cream whenever). Whether someone chooses nutritiously dense foods or not doesn’t determine their worth, the respect they deserve or their moral status. • This mentality, that’s drummed into us by diet culture all around us, is incredibly damaging, and 100% fuels eating disorders. This labelling is toxic and it’s fuelling disordered eating AND eating disorders. • Stop labelling food as good or bad. FOOD IS FOOD AND IT’S BLOODY DELICIOUS🍪🍑 • Food labels are for what toppings are on your takeaway pizza 💁🏻♀️
(PTW?) Things are very much not good. I got some less than ideal blood test results back last week, so my GP didn’t sign off on me donating blood for another 3-6 months at least. Wasn’t given the go ahead to come off the last 50mg of my seroquel yesterday either. My appetite is non existent, which has led to a pretty much liquid diet at the moment, which is severely lacking in appropriate levels of calories. Self harm urges are also the strongest they’ve been in a long time. My outreach worker is on holidays for the next two and a half weeks, and my pain only feels like it’s getting worse. So annoyed at my body for being a dick and not doing what I need it to do #atypicalanorexia #atypicalanorexiarecovery #ednos #ednosrecovery #ednosfamily #ednoswarrior #osfed #osfedrecovery #ed #edfam #edrecovery #edwarrior #edsoldier #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #recoveringaussies #adultswitheds #weightrestored #depression #anxiety #bpd #bpdrecovery #struggle #struggletown #lifeishard
Caught up with my favourite teacher from primary school today. Was so good to see her! I was so anxious to see her after 15 years since I last saw her, but she was so easy to talk to and we’re going to catch up again soon! #atypicalanorexia #atypicalanorexiarecovery #ednos #ednosrecovery #ednosfamily #ednoswarrior #osfed #osfedrecovery #ed #edfam #edrecovery #edwarrior #edsoldier #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #recoveringaussies #adultswitheds #weightrestored #depression #anxiety #bpd #bpdrecovery #reconnecting #reconnection
Today has been the Monday-est Tuesday ever smh.
Well, hello there, BBQ stuffed sweet potato. It's been a hot minute 😏 Pulled bbq @perduechicken breasts slow cooked in @newmansown barbecue sauce + microwaved sweet potato + oven baked broccoli, cauliflower, and brussel sprouts + nutritional yeast #dinner #bbqchicken #veggies #sweetpotato #bbq #chicken #healthy #food #carbs #gains #postworkout #protein #ed #recovery #motivation #edsoldier #prorecovery #health #fitness #foodisfuel #strongnotskinny #fitnotthin #balancednotclean #barbecue #ovenbaked #weightrestored
Honestly if you’re gonna judge my butt sweat keep scrolling cause I’m sure I can workout harder than you anyway if you’re judging that😘🐸☕️ Another leg day in the books. Only this one actually killed me ☠️ (in a good way😉) it consisted of heavy sled pushes, and tired flips, a few little sprints but that’s it... and I’m DEAD. Honestly it amazes me how you really don’t have to get fancy to get a killer workout🤷🏻♀️ anywho I’m getting lots of attention on my program and it’s so exciting! I’m gonna wait a little longer and see if anyone else wants to join... then I’ll start it up!! Anyway hope everyone had an amazing start to the week😘❤️
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Hey guys!! Happy Monday to you all 💕 this morning I woke up absolutely eXhAuStEddd and was supposed to go for a swim, but instead I listened to my body, rested up and am spending the day studying and taking it easy! • Sometimes it’s hard, it feels like I’m slacking off, but I know in reality that I’m just very run down from the last week and taking the time to rest and recover is what’s better for my health anyways 😊 • What I’m up to for the rest of my day: a chat with @fearstofit, studying with a friend, and eating good! Maybe some kitty cuddles and Netflix in there too 🐱 (soup for the soul I’m telling ya) • Anyways I hope you guys are all having a wonderful start to your week! Love yew 💕💕
Hey guys! I just wanted to pop in on the cold and snowy Saturday and give you guys a little update. • So last week was one of the hardest week I’ve had in a long time. With my friend being in the hospital, I spent a lot of time there with her. I was there before class, between classes and after class everyday while she was there. On top of that I had my school work, my classes, was asked to pick up extra shifts at work, and other friends that also weren’t doing so well. It’s safe to say I put myself on the back burner and didn’t take very good care of myself. • Now don’t get me wrong, I was happy to be there for my friend and I’d do it again in a heart beat. I just need to learn how to take care of myself first and make sure I’m taking my health into account. • Last night, my date got cancelled and that was the last straw. I slipped up pretty bad and made some poor decisions that I’m not proud of. But you know what, it happens, and today is a new day and I’m getting back on track. • This coming week my goal is to take better care of myself. I need to get my sleep and I need to stay on top of my school work. I need to realize that it’s okay to be selfish sometimes. • Anyways that’s all for today! Take care of yourselves guys, our health should be our main priority at all times! Anywho I love you guys, have a great weekend 💕
Hey guys. I hope you’re all doing well. Just wanted to pop in and check in on everyone 💕 With school starting and everyone’s lives becoming more chaotic, it is so important now as always to take care of yourself and your mental health. • This morning a good friend of mine attempted suicide, and I am eternally grateful to say that she is alive and in hospital. She is so strong and so resilient, I know without a doubt she will recover from this, but I ask that you all keep her in your thoughts and prayers. • If you or a friend is struggling, please don’t hesitate to reach out. Whether it be to a friend, a teacher, a doctor, or anyone else just please please reach out! • In Canada call 911 or a local suicide prevention hotline (you can find yours at suicideprevention.ca) • The US suicide prevention hotline : 1 (800) 273-8255 • As always, my DMs are always open! Please if you’re struggling, reach out! I promise, despite everything your head is telling you, the world WILL NOT be a better place without you! You are beautiful and inspiring and important. Your life matters, you will do great things. And you will get through this 💕 • Stay safe guys, I love you all!
Happy Tuesday friends 💕 Got up early this morning and went to the gym before class and I’m not gonna lie it wasn’t my best workout 😕 but that’s okay! Bad workouts happen, and I’m not going to compensate for it!! Anyways I just have 2 classes today and then home to study 🤓 And then tonight I’ve got my call with @fearstofit !!! So excited to talk to her 😋 anyways that’s all for me, I hope you guys all have an awesome Tuesday xoxo
Busy busy day for me today! Woke up this morning and got a quick swim in and then some yoga to stretch out!!then ran home quickly 🏃🏼♀️ (not literally), made all the food 🥞🍝🥜 and rushed of to work for a 4 hour shift! After this I have a formal even at school (I actually have no clue what it is 🤷🏼♀️) and then home to beddd 😴😴😴 • Anyways yesterday was a good for me!! I finally FINALLY got my hunger cues back 🎉🎉 Meaning getting back on track and finishing my meal plan was 👌🏻👌🏻👌🏻 I even ate over my meal plan because like hell if I’m going to ignore these hunger cues (huge recovery win!!!) • Anyways that’s all for today friends! I’m also shifting back to posting more of the OG food pics and not all workout pics so if you like that yay 💪🏼 and if not whatcha gonna do sorry 🤷🏼♀️ I hope you’re all having a wonderful Monday 💕💕
Wassup my doodes!! Today is gonna be a good day. Had a good leg sesh 🏋🏼♀️ challenged muffins and pancakes 🥞🥞 this morning and now I’m chilling watching some Atypical before work 👌🏻😄 Today is the day I get back on track! 2 bad days don’t define me and I’ve come too far to let my ED win! Anyways that’s all for today!! I hope you guys are all having a wonderful weekend 💕
#transformation summer 2017 vs. summer 2018 ▫️▫️ I don’t want to go back to where I was. I don’t want to loose all my progress. I don’t want to loose all the strength I’ve built up. I don’t want to miss out on memories. ▫️▫️ It’s time to hop back on the recovery train and kick my butt into gear. Why wait till tomorrow or the end of the week when I can start now? ▫️▫️ Looking back on pictures like these it proves to myself how far I’ve truly come. So do I really want to let a slip up derail me into a full relapse? Where does that get me? The hospital and nobody’s making memories there. ▫️▫️ I just need to make it till Friday. Do my best every day until Friday when I can see my dietician and make a game plan. ▫️▫️ I’m healthier, I’m stronger, I’m more fun, I’m more outgoing, I can concentrate, I can workout and truly enjoy it, I’m a better friend, I’m more independent. The list goes on. I’ve come too damn far to let anorexia take over again. I’m winning this time.
Just a lil transformation on this beautiful Sunday to remind myself how far I’ve truly come. These pictures are exactly a year apart, both at my family reunion, but so much has changed between the 2! ▫️▫️ It may not look like much, but I wasn’t living in the left picture. Everyday was hell and looking back, it reminds me how much better life is on the other side of this illness ▫️▫️ Today is my family reunion. It’s a giant potluck with all the extended family. This time last year, I didn’t allow myself to truly enjoy the food and the time with my family. Hell I didn’t even go swimming or tubing in the ocean because I was too scared to be in a bathing suit. ▫️▫️ I am not letting that happen this year. So here’s to recovery, allowing me to enjoy the food and time with family. And you better believe I’m going swimming and tubing, no matter how uncomfortable I am in a bathing suit. ▫️▫️ This Illness is not going to take another year from me. So here’s to a great day with my family. Because life is all about making memories! ▫️▫️ On my plate: grandmas bun’s, Merrick’s butter chicken, Amy’s Nanaimo bars, farm fresh ribs, sex in a pan ( #alldanoms ) All family favorites, all homemade food, all so so good 🤤🤤🤤
For my 100th post I thought I’d do a bit of a throwback! ▫️▫️▫️▫️ Looking back on pictures like this from 1 year ago, I can see how far I’ve come. I wasn’t happy, I wasn’t healthy, I wasn’t fun to be around. This past year has been the hardest of my life, but today I can say it was worth it. I didn’t feel small back then, I refused to admit I was sick. I honestly couldn’t see it! Today I looked back at this picture and for the first time I can actually see how small I was, how sick I was. This isn’t the life I want. I want to be happy and healthy. I want to spend time with friends. I want to enjoy my workouts and go to the gym because I want to, and not because of this stupid little voice in my head telling me I have to. If you’re struggling right now, please don’t hesitate to reach out! DM me, talk to a friend or a parent. Because I promise you life is so much better on the other side of this. Sure, I still have my fair share of hard days, but everyday I fight and most days I win, and that’s what counts. I promise you if I can do this, so can you! There’s never a perfect time to start, it’s always gonna be scary, and every day is going to be a fight, it’s going to be hard. But you need to choose recovery, you need to choose to fight every day. You need to choose life, because honestly, living with an eating disorder is so far from living, and you deserve to live💕
It’s hard to be happy with where you’re at. It’s hard to see how far you’ve come, but looking back on this picture from exactly one year ago today, so much has changed. Of course there’s the 30+ pounds of weight but there’s also so much mental change (and a pretty solid tan #sunfordayz ) ▫️▫️▫️▫️ This time last year I never thought I could eat normally again. I never thought I could take a rest day. I sure as hell never thought I’d eat at a restaurant again. Hell this time last year I wasn’t even diagnosed, and was avoiding any idea that I was sick. I’ve come so far in the past 12 months and it’s about time I give myself some credit for that. ▫️▫️▫️▫️ So here’s to recovery. To stepping so far outside my comfort zone. To working hard and eating good, and to building muscle. Because hard work can go a long ways. And I’m not giving up 💪🏼