October is pregnancy and infant loss Awareness Month. I myself have had three miscarriages. Jack had a twin that I lost at 9 weeks. I lost another baby before I had Alex. When Ryan and I were home for Christmas in 2012, I fell on the ice at my brothers home and miscarried. It's such a deep grief and most times you have no closure because you are told most times "these things just happen". It's very hard... especially when you are mourning the loss of your child and you will never know why. It's a feeling you wouldn't wish on anyone. God says, "I will not cause pain without something new to be born." Isaiah 66:9. Scarlett is our beautiful Rainbow baby 🌈 and she is such a joy to all that know her! My heart goes out to anyone who is or has suffered such a loss ❤
Today I’m remembering the women who have lost a child to miscarriage, pregnancy loss, and infant loss. You are loved, and your child remembered. If you want a safe space to speak their names, please consider this one. From one miscarried Mama to another.
I’m reposting this post this evening for #waveoflight2018 , where we remember the babies that we lost. Did you know that 1 in 4 pregnancies end in miscarriage or loss? 💔 . I have recently been contacted by some lovely customers looking for me to design something for themselves or a loved one to remember this difficult and heartbreaking time. As a result we now have some lovely prints available 💕 I have also decided to donate €1 from every sale of these prints to the Miscarriage Association Of Ireland. 💛 . Miscarriages don’t have to be difficult, let’s open up and talk about them. They will always be heart breaking but let’s Remember the babies that we never got to hold and the babies that cannot be here with us today. No matter what your story is, no matter how short or long your pregnancy was, your story matters 💛 . If you wish to purchase a print, you can order from the link in the bio or send me a message. . For more information on the Miscarriage Association Of Ireland, please visit www.miscarriage.ie 💞 #waveoflight #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesupport #iam1in4 #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #pregnancy #etsy #shopsmallireland
I never saw your twinkling eyes Or touched your precious feet. I never shared a tiny yawn Or rocked you fast asleep. I never kissed your tiny hands Or saw your little smile. I never held you in my arms, But I held you for a while. Although I never saw your face Or heard your precious laughter, You're still my child whom I love And will forever after. 💗💙 #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #miscarriage #blaw2018 #waveoflight #waveoflight2018
October 15th is miscarriage and infant loss awareness day. I LOVE this memorial necklace from SHINElife that keeps the memory of our 9 babies in Heaven close to my heart! ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡ You can find the necklace here: https://shopshinelife.com/collections/new-releases/products/blessed-angel-mommy #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #1in4 #closetomyheart #9babiesinHeaven
It was 52° this morning (I know, I know... you can make fun of this girl who grew up in MN whose blood has thinned out so much that 52° feels cold!🙄) I was not excited about the chilly weather, but it did allow me to FINALLY wear this olive green striped shirt that I have been wanting to wear ever since I got it 6 weeks ago! Pairing it with my plum wine jeggings and olive vest today! I normally don't wear any jewelry to work, other than my watch and rings, but today I am wearing my miscarriage memorial necklace.💜 You can find it here: https://shopshinelife.com/collections/new-releases/products/blessed-angel-mommy #ootd #Imayactuallybestylishnow #wardrobemakeover #whatTOwear #newclothesfordays #olivegreen #jeggings #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #1in4 #closetomyheart #Ireallyneedtogetmyeyebrowsdone #caterpillareyebrows
We’re absolutely over the moon to share with everyone that we’re having a baby! This has been an incredibly challenging year- full of sadness, grief, and uncertainty after experiencing three devastating losses. But through it all we remained hopeful and optimistic and now we are so grateful to be able to finally grow our family and give Sebastian a sibling. If this year has shown me anything, it’s that I picked the right person to do the hard things in life with. I’m forever grateful for @rickyro24 ‘s love and support and I can’t wait to experience the gift of another baby boy with him. (Yes, it’s a boy!) ••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••Through our struggle I also came to the realization of how many women I know PERSONALLY who have experienced, or are experiencing the many difficult challenges that go along with growing your family. It is so much more common than we all think, and talking about it is the only way to help each other feel less alone. During this #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness month (and always) my heart goes out to anyone out there experiencing the pain of infertility, loss or miscarriage. Please know that you are not alone, and that there is hope ✨💙
Not a day goes by when I don’t long to hold my angel baby in my arms. 👼🏼 Not many women speak of their miscarriages/infant losses and the hurt and pain that they feel on a daily basis. It’s like a piece of your heart is missing until you are reunited in heaven. It is ok to miss them. It is ok to feel sadness. It is ok to feel helpless. It is ok to keep it silent but know that 1 in every 4 women experience miscarriages or infant loss...so if you ever need to talk, reach out and let’s mourn the loss of our babies together. #miscarriage #iam1in4 #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #infantloss #angelbabies #missingyoueveryday #speakout
Mama. . I have one baby on earth, and I have one baby in heaven. . A little under two years ago, we lost our first baby. It was an early miscarriage, but that baby was loved and wanted fiercely. . Today is Infant Loss and Miscarriage Remembrance Day. It is a day to remember the little ones that we lost without holding, those born sleeping, and babes taken too soon. . I love this shirt because the “mama” is placed over my heart, reminding me of the two little souls that I’ll love into eternity. . . . . Thank you @westendkidsandco for this shirt that means so much to me. Use code SHOP15 for 15% off their shop! ❤️ . . . . . #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #mamalife #mynameismama #honestmotherhood #parenthood_moments #sabrinagrantpresets #motherhoodunplugged #babiesofinstagram #ig_motherhood #pregnancy #sharemoments #cameramama
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In January of 2007 I was pregnant and then I wasn’t. At 8 weeks along my baby’s heartbeat stopped. At the time my son was 2, and we went on to have two daughters. But I often think of the baby that wasn’t meant to be. 💕 To all the mothers and fathers that had to say goodbye too soon, before there was even a chance to meet and know your child, I understand that pain of this kind of loss. As only some who lived it can. Scroll over to see two poems I wrote about my pregnancy loss.
Today, I sit here so unspeakably grateful for each baby I have been entrusted to carry- to term or not. Our sweet Shepherd is one week old today. But today also marks 3 years since I miscarried Eden and entered a short painful season of infertility. Though our loss and struggle are so very real and I don’t ever aim to minimize that, there are men & women facing so much more than we have or ever will. 1 in 4 doesn’t even seem like an accurate statistic anymore. 1 in 4 is me. It’s several of my dear friends. Its you. Your neighbor. Your coworker. Your sibling. Carrying a child you don’t get to raise is heartbreak at it’s core. If this is you- I’m so sorry. I stand with you & I grieve with you. The agenda of grief has no timeline. And that’s one of the most difficult things. It will always be here— shifting and evolving- until the glory of heaven. . . . . . . . #miscarriage #iam1in4 #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #miscarriageawareness #waveoflight #angelbabies
This is not sass but this is important. This is miscarriage and baby loss week. 1/4 babies are lost to miscarriage 1/100 women have recurring miscarriages Over 100 babies are born sleeping each week in the UK #miscarriage #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #miscarriageandbabyloss #babyloss #angels
October 15th is miscarriage and infant loss awareness day. I LOVE this memorial necklace from SHINElife that keeps the memory of our 9 babies in Heaven close to my heart! ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡ You can find the necklace here: https://shopshinelife.com/collections/new-releases/products/blessed-angel-mommy #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #babiesinHeaven
+ HOW CAN I BE A CHRISTIAN: MISCARRIAGE. + https://mummahugs.wordpress.com/2018/03/02/how-can-i-be-a-christian-miscarriage/ + #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesupport #christian #christianity #honestchristian #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #blaw #blaw2018 #miscarriageandgod #honesty #motherhood #honestmum #mumblogger #mummyblogger #bloggeruk #ukmum #parenthood #parentingblogger #breakthetaboo #breakthesilence #1in4
So thankful for the love and support I have through my friend, Jenna Ingram and her whole family that help make this day happen. A great way to heal and know that we aren’t alone on this journey of baby loss. We faithfully have a Father who loves us and cares for us daily, but its such a comfort to know that we also have a band of others around us that have either gone through similar or worse. It’s a hard road, one I would never wish upon another, but the Lord heals the broken hearted and loves His people with an everlasting love. ❤️ God is so good. #myheartisfull #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #thankful #Godisstillgood #heavenkissedbabies #allthosebabiesyall
Hello Butterfly, I’m always surprised at how perfectly beautiful October 13th is. The cool of the morning is diffused with the warmth of the approaching noon, and the leaves are in full, papered flame. Today marks three years of seeing you—or, of not seeing you, seeing your empty space—on that little screen in the ultrasound room. You would think such an anniversary as this one would occasionally fall upon a gloomy autumn day—especially since the week leading up to this morning was cold, with our first taste of winter’s inevitable chill. But today is perfect. Glorious even. . . Three years seems like such a long time. Your daddy and I have only been married a year and a few months longer than that. I think about that day so long ago and remember it being perfect outside, just like this one, maybe even more so. Since then, a lot has taken place. I’ve told your story countless times and met new faces close, or across oceans, who are missing their babies too. I’ve written a book to help people who are grieving; I’ve volunteered at our local resource center as a source of comfort and encouragement to other moms; I’ve even gotten a tiny tattoo over my heart to remember you. So much of my circle revolves around you, even though you are no longer here. I think maybe, sometimes, it can be unhealthy if my mind is in the wrong place; but I think as your mother I just don’t WANT to forget. Maybe I should forget a little bit. Maybe I should be more careful with what I hold onto, so I can be willing to take hold of something else that comes my way. But, my dear one, I will never forget you. And I don’t regret loving you. I remember the hope you gave me—the fear and the joy of those few few weeks (or even days) that I held you—and I don’t regret any of it. I think maybe, foolishly, I did at one time... because it hurt so much to remember and let go. But three years changes a lot. And you will always be my beautiful memory. 🦋
Wave of Light 2018 Please feel free to share your beautiful Angel Baby's Name and Due Date or Date of their passing (angelversary) I will write their names down tonight 7 pm during my Wave of Light. Please be gentle to yourself today. Or join in live link in bio. #pregnancyloss #miscarriage #miscarriagesurvivor #miscarriagesupport #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #october152018 #waveoflight #honouryourbaby #womenempoweringwomen #ttcaftermiscarriage #recurrentmiscarriage #youarenotalone #1in4 #loveandlight
Wave of Light 2018 Please feel free to share your beautiful Angel Baby's Name and Due Date or Date of their passing (angelversary) I will write their names down tonight 7 pm during my Wave of Light. Please be gentle to yourself #pregnancyloss #miscarriage #miscarriagesurvivor #miscarriagesupport #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #october152018 #waveoflight #honouryourbaby #womenempoweringwomen #ttcaftermiscarriage #recurrentmiscarriage #youarenotalone #1in4 #loveandlight
Wednesday was world mental health awareness day. October is also pregnancy & infant loss awareness month. •• These are really hard topics for most women. Even though we “know” miscarriage, postpartum depression, postpartum anxiety, & postpartum OCD are common, it feels isolating. •• We discuss both miscarriage and postpartum anxiety in episode 4. One of our goals through this podcast is to help moms feel less isolated in their journey. Whether you’ve suffered miscarriage, sick children, postpartum mood disorders, or anything else, you are not alone. •• We hope that hearing our stories & the stories of other moms will help you as a mom realize that, while these topics are still not discussed much, you truly aren’t alone, and others have felt exactly how you feel. You are not weird, different, or alone.
What are some lies you told yourself after your miscarriage? As #miscarriageandinfantlossawarenessmonth continues I wanted to take a look into the ways women react and cope with loss. I know when I went through the hardest days that it was very easy to lie to myself—that this loss was “my fault” or that I was somehow “less of a woman” because I couldn’t carry my child to full term. As I’ve seen in so many cases, these fears and lies about ourselves after loss pop up again and again. I not only want to talk about these lies, but I also want to combat them with truth! Keep an eye on my stories today, later I will highlight some of my most common lies I’ve seen or believed about myself after my miscarriage. . . I discuss more lies women tell themselves in my book “Silent Stories” that’s on sale for $10 this month! You can find it on Amazon or on my publishers website.
So happy to be blessed with these 2 awesome baby girls. ... But, I still think about the child we lost, especially today, since he or she would be turning a year old around this time. ... We may never got to hold you little one, but we'll forever hold you in our hearts. 💕 . . . . . #healing #pregnancylossawareness #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #miscarriagesucks #angelbaby #rainbowbaby #miscarriagematters #babyloss #pregnancyloss #miscarriagesupport #miscarriageawareness #miscarriage
I’m in tears right now! 😭 I just got this hoodie in the mail from I’m assuming the hospital since we just did a memorial last weekend, whoever it was a HUGE thank you!! I love it 😍💛😇 #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesupport #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #mommytoanangel #alwaysinmyheart
#shareyourgrief2018 #day10 - "Love Letter" [This was written just a few weeks after losing my son] Dear Sigh, I miss you I miss everything. The way you were so strong So persistent, so determined. The way you filled me up And challenged all my Naiive beliefs and Ideals. I miss your gentle touch The way youd run your Small fingers along The Folds Of My Heart. I miss hearing your heartbeat The strong beats that still repeat Yet, they went quiet while my own Heart Kept Beating. How cruel…. I miss you I love you ♡-mommy #rememberingsigh #shareyourgrief #31daychallenge #miscarriageawareness #stillbirthandinfantloss #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #loveletter #mysigh
I spent years and years fighting pain and overwhelming sadness because infertility and a miscarriage robbed me of the life I thought I wanted. But time heals, and I’ve grown to love and embrace my role as Crazy Aunt Melinda. Being the childless aunt/sister/friend allows me the flexibility to be available when my friends need me - and so life comes full circle. My life isn’t lacking because God called us to be a family of two - it’s fuller because of it. I’m so thankful for my friends who allow me the honor to be aunt. To come alongside and love their babies like my own. To help reinforce the values they are instilling in their families. To be framily. My heart and my arms are fuller than I ever could have imagined. Because God didn’t give me the life I thought I wanted - He gave me the life He had planned all along. Thank you, Amy, for the honor of being one who you trust with your most precious possessions. #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #iamoneinfour #framily #auntmelindascrew #myquiverfull #br_OK_en #framily
NEW BLOG POST - The Secret Shadow Of Grief Going through any major loss in life will challenge your beliefs. While you may have thought one thing about your future, your body, or your ability, all of that will be tested when the bottom falls out on your dreams. For me, this happened when I had to come to terms with my miscarriage. (Read more: blog link in bio.) #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesupport #miscarriagesurvivor #miscarriagesucks #miscarriagematters #miscarriagequotes #miscarriages #miscarriagemomma #miscarriageassociation #ihadamiscarriage #ttcaftermiscarriage #miscarriagessuck #miscarriagejourney #missedmiscarriage #miscarriagemommy #recurrentmiscarriage #miscarriagemama #pregnancyaftermiscarriage #miscarriagehurts #miscarriagewarrior #miscarriageawarenessmonth #miscarriagerecovery #miscarriagesurvivors #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #miscarriageremembrance #lifeaftermiscarriage #latemiscarriage #infertilitylifecoach #mindsettomotherhood
💗it’s miscarriage and infant loss awareness month 💙 I often think about my babies in heaven... what they are like, what they look like, and what life would be like if they were here. It was so encouraging to me when you all shared with me your experiences. It was uplifting to not feel so alone. If you would like to, comment how many you have in heaven, their names if they have them and just remember them and send love out to them today. Let us also lift each other up and show that we are not alone 💗💙 #notalone #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness
Did you know that October is Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness month? 💔 Did you know that 1 in 4 pregnancies end in miscarriage or loss? 💔 I have recently been contacted by some lovely customers looking for me. to design something for themselves or a loved one to remember this difficult and heartbreaking time. As a result we now have some lovely prints available 💕 I have also decided to donate €1 from every sale of these prints to the Miscarriage Association Of Ireland. 💛 Miscarriages don’t have to be difficult, let’s open up and talk about them. They will always be heart breaking but let’s Remember the babies that we never got to hold and the babies that cannot be here with us today. No matter what your story is, no matter how short or long your pregnancy was, your story matters 💛 If you wish to purchase a print, please visit www.prettylittlepressies.etsy.com or send me a message. For more information on the Miscarriage Association Of Ireland, please visit www.miscarriage.ie 💞 #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesupport #iam1in4 #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #pregnancy #etsy #shopsmallireland
It's something I haven't spoken about much in the past as I felt ashamed that my body failed me. Lately things have been catching my mind much more off guard and opening the old wounds and thinking to the many maybes or what ifs. That I was never able hold you in my arms as you cry. Never watch you sleep. Never watch you grow up, be there to wipe your eyes and clean your knees. Celebrate your achievements. Watch you grow into a beautiful soul. Watching you follow your dreams My life would have been so different to what it is now and in so many different ways. Not a day goes by when I dont think about you. Lately you have been appearing in my dreams more and more. I miss all those maybe with all of my heart. #miscarriage #mothersloss #stillamum #mumofangels #angelswatchme #neveralone #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #whatifs #sleeptightbaby #openingup #dreams #dreamisawishyourheartmakes #loss #nomoreshame #newadventures #betterme #heartache
It’s October. Miscarriage and Infant loss awareness month is in full force, and I haven’t been super active this year, but I wanted to post today for #ADayStillStanding It’s the day before our anatomy scan with this newest baby. Most people at this point are over the moon about finding out the gender, but honestly I’m just a ball of nerves. The anatomy scan is when we found out Austin wouldn’t make it, so with Chantry, and now this new baby, it simply isn’t about gender. We are so excited, but we also hold a place for our fear. So it’s been a day of cuddling Chantry when she needs it, and filling all the other moments with busy work. But I’m standing, and I’ll stand again tomorrow. @stillstandingmag
I know you’re trying to fight when you feel like flying. If you love me, don’t let go. Hold on to me. I’m a little unsteady 🖤 If somehow, future me could have popped up and told me that I was going to lose my first baby, I still wouldn’t have been prepared for the heartbreak that came along with hearing “there’s no heartbeat” after just seeing & hearing that sweet sound 2 weeks prior. It would have never prepared me for when my doctor said I could labor at home or have a D&C. I would not have had been prepared for 8 hours of intense contractions, with no where to go, and no one to help me. I wasn’t prepared to hold my first baby girl in the palms of my hands. I wasn’t prepared to have my heart broken in that way. I was not prepared for the darkness that clouded my mind. The hatred that filled my soul. The anger that boiled in my blood. I was not prepared for months of sobbing. I was not prepared when I had to do it again in 2015. I will never be prepared for that heartbreak. Some people look at me, and I’m not sure what they see. I look at me and see brokenness. My heart won’t ever heal from this pain. #1in4 #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #Iamtheface
My book trailer has been out for a full week already! 😲 Already It’s been such a blessing to see how the trailer has opened up conversations about miscarriage with people. (If you haven’t seen it yet, the link is in my bio.) Having these kinds of heart to heart conversations with women is so special to me, knowing people’s stories and sharing comfort and hope with others is something that fills me with so much joy. 💛 Thank you everyone who has already watched the video and for your support with this project. I appreciate you all so much. 💛 . . My book “Silent Stories: Sharing Hope, Love, and Loss after Miscarriage.” Is on sale this entire month for only $10. It can be found on Amazon or on https://dotsmicropublishinghouse.com
Our story with our son Samuel - hopefamilycareministries.org #Repost @hopefamilycareministries (@get_repost) ・・・ 'It has taken me a long time to write this… almost 2 years actually, from the day that our son Samuel Gene Whitaker was born and then went to be with his Father in heaven less than an hour later...' -Edwin Whitaker #grief #infantloss #urethralstenosis #oligohydramnios #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #childlossawareness #hopefamilycare #bereavedparents
'It has taken me a long time to write this… almost 2 years actually, from the day that our son Samuel Gene Whitaker was born and then went to be with his Father in heaven less than an hour later...' -Edwin Whitaker #grief #infantloss #urethralstenosis #oligohydramnios #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #childlossawareness #hopefamilycare #bereavedparents
I came across this sketch tonight and it hit me hard. The emotion within this picture rang so true to what Scott and I felt when we lost our boys. This picture was sketched by an artist that had just found out that his wife was going to miscarry their baby at just 9 weeks pregnant. He states that he and his wife sat in their car and sobbed for 30 minutes while embracing each other. Not out of anger, but out of true grief. This picture speaks so strongly to that moment that could never be put into words. That feeling of utter sorrow and grief. With this picture, I would like to remind everyone that this month is not only breast cancer awareness month, but also miscarriage and infant loss awareness month. Please keep in your thoughts and prayers all the women and families that have lost these precious lives. #angelbabies #KennedyJames #WaylonScott #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #breakthesilence #Iamthe1in4
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Did you name the baby you lost? I’ve already talked a little bit about why we call her Butterfly, but a big reason is just because butterflies have always been something whimsical and enchanting to me. When I see a monarch or a giant swallowtail, there’s just an instant feeling of awe and peace that fills me. When I was in high school, I started using butterflies as a reminder that God loves me. When I wrote my initial blog post about my loss, I called our baby Butterfly as a poetic way to think of how he or she flew away from us. My ultrasound picture looked like an empty, little cocoon. And because we hadn’t seen if baby was a boy or girl yet (though we always think girl), Butterfly was a middle ground name that had meaning and beauty to it. In my book “Silent Stories”, several of the ladies who shared their stories with me also picked out names to remember their babies. Though not everyone chooses to do so, sometimes naming your child you lost can create a connection, as a reminder that he or she was—and is—real and loved. If you did name a baby you lost, what did you choose and why? . . My book about my little Butterfly is still on sale this month for $10 on https://dotsmicropublishinghouse.com if you’d like a copy, you can find it there or on Amazon. 💛
‼️READ before commenting‼️ I don’t deal with loss in the normal way most people do. I’m closed off and compartmentalize when I feel it’s necessary. I refuse to show heartbreak and pain. I push it to the farthest point of my mind and don’t look back. Last year in September I found out I was pregnant. Days after testing I went to the Doctor for an ultra sound. Then came the miscarriage. Michael Donnelly hasn’t had a child yet & I wanted to make an announcement just for him. Addie & the girls helped me pick how to do it. I will never forget bringing home the box with bow & pictures inside. I stood excitedly and videoed Mikes reaction. He was so excited he cried. The days following, I was cramping. I never cramp EVER. I always thought that I wouldn’t have to experience anything like this. Never felt my contractions with either of the girls. Never had problems carrying before. Guess this time it just wasn’t meant to be. I’m sharing this because I have to deal with the loss of a child I never will get to meet, a child my girls still talk about and a child that mike never got to hold. It’s hard. It’s rough. It’s raw. This is a very real experience that most people don’t talk about.
Self-care through grieving periods is super important. (Not just after miscarriage). Most of the time when I have a hard day, my energy zaps down to zero and I just don’t want to do anything productive. Sometimes self-care can look like making yourself eat and drink like normal, pampering yourself with a hot shower or bath, and putting a happy blend in the diffuser. But sometimes self-care can just be letting yourself sleep and grieve. And letting yourself know that it’s OKAY to be having a hard day. After losing Butterfly, I often felt guilty that I had so many “down days”. I felt like I needed to “get over it” faster. I think it can be damaging to try to guilt yourself out of grieving because society expects you to move on, or because it it hurting longer than you thought it would. The grieving process is different for everyone, and just because someone else could move forward sooner after their loss than you doesn’t mean that you are somehow “doing it wrong.” Sometimes self-care can just be showing yourself grace through the messy times—the times when your feelings and emotions are crumbling and you can’t do anything else but cry. Today has been a little rough. It always gets harder whenever my monthly cycle starts up again. Took a short nap earlier, and got in some snuggles from my hubby. Trying to go easy on myself. What are you doing for self-care today?
From the moment I learned I would miscarry our first baby, 12 excruciating days passed before it actually happened. The doctor gave me all of the standard options after confirming the pregnancy would not continue and I chose to miscarry naturally on my own. This meant I had to wait for my body to process everything and catch up to what my mind already knew was going to happen. . (Blog post link in bio.) . . #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesupport #miscarriagesurvivor #miscarriagesucks #miscarriagematters #miscarriagequotes #miscarriages #miscarriagemomma #miscarriageassociation #ihadamiscarriage #ttcaftermiscarriage #miscarriagessuck #miscarriagejourney #missedmiscarriage #miscarriagemommy #recurrentmiscarriage #miscarriagemama #pregnancyaftermiscarriage #miscarriagehurts #miscarriagewarrior #miscarriageawarenessmonth #miscarriagerecovery #miscarriagesurvivors #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #miscarriageremembrance #lifeaftermiscarriage #latemiscarriage #infertilitylifecoach #mindsettomotherhood
Shirts are ordered for our 2nd annual #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness walk Sat Oct 13th on the #tampariverwalk . Check our Facebook or Eventbrite to order or register for the walk. If you're not local we're happy to ship you one! All proceeds from shirt sales and our walk go directly to our local loss support groups 💞💓 . . . . . . . #1in4 #iam1in4 #tampa #tampabaymoms #tampamom #riverwalk #bornstillbutstillborn #stillborn #miscarriage #lossmom
💕👼💕October is miscarriage and infant loss awareness month...not a day goes by that I dont wish our babies were here with us but they're in heaven instead. Mommy and daddy love you landyn james/marli danielle(3.7.17) and hayden (12.15.17) #tellyourstory #miscarriageawareness #flyhigh #gonetoosoon #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #october #missyou #brokenheart #angelmom
“Rejoice in Hope, be patient in tribulation, be consistent in prayer.” -Romans 12:12 . Hope. Did you ever feel that your hope was wasted? After my miscarriage, “hope” was one of those words that would bring me to tears whenever I came across it. I HAD hoped. I HAD dreamt of the future we were going to have with our little one. Even after I noticed the “warning signs” that I was miscarrying, I still hoped that everything would be alright and that my baby would be fine. Of course, after everything happened, I felt like the biggest fool for holding onto my hope for so long. I felt like I had wasted my hopes upon this thing that was never to be. But out of that—out of my broken and far-off dreams—God has shown Himself faithful to my life and I have been blessed in ways I could have never accepted if my hopes had played out the way I thought they should. Of course I still hope to have other children in the future. I hope for that blessing, but I know the OBJECT of my hope does not rest in that possibility. The only way I can hold on to a HOPE that will never fail is to place it in the One who promises that if I trust in Him I “Will never be put to shame”. . . Watch my book trailer in my bio!!!
Pregnancy and baby loss awareness month- how I remember my baby. DAY 3: I got this tattoo a few months ago. I wanted something delicate and this is exactly what I wanted. Every time I look at it it reminds me that I hold my baby close to me in my heart❤️ #babymenzies #pregnancyloss #miscarriagesupport #pregnancylossawareness #miscarriagematters #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesurvivor #miscarriages #earlypregnancyloss #angelbaby #babyloss #babylossawareness #heavenbabies #thisismiscarriage #miscarriagemomma #miscarriagesucks #ihadamiscarriage #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #miscarriageremembrance #miscarriagemamas #miscarriageandinfantloss #miscarriagestory #blaw2018 #blaw18 #babylossawarenessweek #miscarriageassociation #babylossremembranceday
October is pregnancy and infant loss awareness month. Always wanted, never forgotten 🌈🌈#miscarriagehurts #miscarriagesucks #miscarriage #miscarriagesurvivor #miscarriageawarenessmonth #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #miscarriageawareness #angelbaby #babyloss #infantloss #iam1in4
Looked out the back door to see this coming out of the #cemetery . #notoriousllr excitedly proclaimed it was coming from his sister. I like to think he was right. A fitting end to the first day of miscarriage and infant loss awareness month. #somewhereovertherainbow #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #infantlosssurvivor #wishingforarainbow #whereeveryouaremylovewillfindyou #angelmom #afterthestorm #nofilter
This month.. We remember all the babies born sleeping. Those we’ve carried but never met. Those we’ve held but couldn’t take home. The ones that came home but could not stay. #miscarriage #infantloss #MiscarriageandInfantlossAwareness 💙💕🙏🏼 Get it here 👇🏼 https://caitlynscloset.cinderellascloset.shop/shop/catalog/New/MiscarriageInfant-awareness-BF-Tee
Dear friends, this month we remember. We remember the sorrow you have felt, the babies that we miss. We remember the peace that God has given to sustain us in his faithfulness. This month we remember. This October, pregnancy and infant loss awareness, let’s change our profile pictures and take this journey together. We are not alone as we grieve, so let us come together in love. You are so very loved!
October is my favorite month for many reasons, but as I get a year older ever October, my reasons change. I love the beginning of the holidays, and the season starts changing, and leaves start falling, but it’s also the month that I get to come out of my shell and talk about by baby Isaac, and share my story, although we only had a few short months together, I have never had so much love in my heart, and so much passion in my soul to help others. 💗💙 💗💙This month I encourage you to help out or support someone you know. There are a few events going on this month, #iewalktoremember and the #ocwalktoremember , as well as the #waveoflight , there are many organizations that help families cope with loss, with donations @foreverfootprints provides keepsake boxes to parents and siblings who are coping with loss. #lorrainesletters #woodenletters #createwithpurpose #miscarriageawareness #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #yourenotalone #angelmom 💙 #aspiretomakeadifference #supportacause #stongertogether
Today marks 1 month without my Ziggy, but also the start of Miscarriage and Infant Loss Awareness Month. My sweet little Ziggy was a rainbow baby before that sunshine was taken away. Throughout this month I am asking all parents to just hug a little tighter to your babies, new or grown, where some of us can't. Practice patience instead of anger, because many would give anything to even fight with a deceased child. If you have also lost a baby, at any stage, at any age, talk about them, say their name, and remind the world that they lived and are still loved. But I really can't stress enough, just hold your little ones close.
October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. I didn’t know I could feel pain and loss like I felt, and still feel, when Brett and I found out I miscarried. . Last month, we were planning our pregnancy announcement photos in a spot like this one. Two weeks ago, we had this little life we already loved more than anything, and a future we had been excitedly planning, ripped away. . 20% of pregnancies end in miscarriage, yet so many women suffer in silence. I’m sharing my story for all the women who have experienced such a tragic loss. It’s nothing to be ashamed of. It’s ok to be sad, to grieve, to allow yourself to feel whatever you’re feeling. You’re not alone 💕. . . . #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #miscarriageawareness #breakthesilence
October is Child Loss Awareness Month! Child loss, infant loss, miscarriage, is not a journey that needs to be walked alone! Please share our Hope Family Care community with your friends or family who have had to face this unimaginable pain! We know that #togetherhopehappens ! #childlossawareness #childlossawarenessmonth #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #childloss #infantloss #sids #sucd #bereavedparents #grief
Yes I have 4 beautiful living boys but they will not replace the one beautiful angel I have in heaven. You are not alone, you did nothing wrong, it happened and it sucks and you are allowed to feel what you feel! #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #mothertoanangel #angelmomma #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #miscarriagesurvivor #iam1in4
I always think of St. Therese when I read this quote, but did you know that it's something that her father, St. Louis Martin, used to say to her all the time? What a brave, strong parent he was.🌹 This quote also always makes me think about my two babes in Heaven. It's comforting to me to think that even though we're separated, they are the ones that are already safely home and I just need to work like hell to get there to join them someday.🌹 Happy Feast Day, my sweet St. Therese! 🌹 And a Blessed #infantandpregnancylossawarenessmonth to all those out there missing children. What's your favorite St. Therese quote? There are so many great ones! 🌹
These nest necklaces are, by far, my favorite thing to make. I am both humbled and excited that I get to send out a bunch of them tomorrow. This necklace just really hit me in the gut, though. The 5 losses that the 5 white eggs represent, and the incredible joy that the one blue egg represents. So much emotion, loss, heartache, joy and love is represented in this little necklace. I love making these necklaces. I love praying for the families that they represent, but mostly, I love that God has given me this opportunity to connect with women in a way that I dont think I otherwise would have.
I started the day with a Sunday morning yoga session🧘🏻♀️ I’m learning to live again after my miscarriage💕 #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagequotes #heavenbabies #babyloss #pregnancyloss #mamaofanangel #miscarriagesupport #miscarriagematters #miscarriagesurvivor #miscarriagesucks #miscarriages #miscarriagemomma #ihadamiscarriage #miscarriagejourney #miscarriageandinfantloss #miscarriagestory #miscarriageblog #miscarriageandinfantlossawareness #miscarriagewarrior #lifeafterloss #miscarriageloss #lifeaftermiscarriage #learningtoliveagain #miscarriageyoga #yoga #yogapractice #yogatherapy