I'm backkkkkkk!! After a little break from this to once again focus on re-training my way of thinking and thought management! I honestly cannot believe how well it's working, not every day that's for sure, some days I am absolutely riddled with dread and fear and I will re-read a txt 29393 times to over analyse but I'd say a good 3/4 days a week now I have mastered the whole re training my thoughts. And because I always have a million questions to ask everyone about a million things I've also started to just enjoy that present moment in time instead of having a list of questions about stuff I'm unsure of or feel like 'I need to know'. I only focus on one thought at a time, one level at a time and I have even reached the 'I don't really care enough to stress' level aswell, which is amazing because some days I just float through not really thinking or giving a shit about anything, but then it is balanced out by days of my normal over worrying and over thinking. I've really cut the amount of time I spend on social media, especially my personal Instagram because it just makes me feel like shit somedays so I just fuck it off. Anything that isn't beneficial to my mental health I will literally just fuck of these days. I am 1000% still considering DBT therapy though because the one thing I will never be able to manage is how horrendously I react to a crisis, because I can't process information/news in the same way as those with a 'normal brain', and I think it's something I really need to look into because as soon as I hit crisis I am in deep shit and it takes a good few weeks to get out of. 2017 was a good year for recovery, but 2018 is all about mastering my way of thinking and keeping my mental health at a real good manageable level and not letting any human or situation affect it in any sort of negative way. This year is all about love, positivity and creating memories and making life that little bit easier.