Today I found myself opening my door for a teary eyed vet—someone who opened her heart and home to my beautiful Lucky. Who cradled Lucky during his (or is it her? We’re still waiting to hear) last hours and did everything within her capabilities to give lucky the best care possible. It was too late for Lucky. I should’ve and could’ve noticed sooner, but I didn’t. It’s almost like Lucky didn’t want me to know how ill he was. There was no time for goodbye. Today I lost my baby, my companion... my world. Sixteen years of my life Lucky has been there to cheer me up, laugh with me or just scream with me when it was too much. So today I screamed. God did I scream. I bawled my eyes out. I hit the bed, the floor, myself. I wanted to break the entire house. I ended up breaking myself. Completely. Because... how do you mourn the loss of the dear friend that helped you through some of the worst in your life. Lucky was amazing. Beautiful. Funny. Sarcastic. And sometimes simply brutal and mean. But he was the best. The best friend I ever had. I have no idea what to do with myself now... but I will hold on to all the gorgeous memories. And God knows I have enough scars to remind me of how fearless he was. Lucky gave me life. It hurts that he’s gone so soon after I finally had him back. I wish I could undo everything he went through all those years he was taken from me. I wish I could undo all the pain, suffering and torture. I wish I could play peek-a-boo or sing with him one last time. Monday he was still hanging upside down from his roof in the rain, screaming his lungs out... that’s how I choose to remember my buddy. That’s how my Lucky will be embraced into my heart. Always and forever. • I want to take a moment to thank @vetdoest for giving it her all. For not giving up on my baby. For believing in Lucky as much as me, my mom and my sis @__vecs did. It means the world to us. Your care for Lucky and me... gave me strength to make it through today. Thank you for bringing Lucky home and laying him to rest like the superstar he was.